God has blessed me with my team and my home. I have been so inspired lately and so humbled. I was letting y own pride and judgments get in the way of my work her. I was so angry with people here. People were skipping out on work, everyone had a negative attitude and I was judging with harsh reactions. I basically wasn’t here for a whole day. I turned out everything. After doing this I realized, once again, that its not about me. It doesn’t matter how tired or bored I am, God has given me the grace and patients to work here. I confessed my anger to the team I told them I was furious, and I apologized for my critical self righteous behavior; it’s so easy to fall into sin. I’m so happy that God keeps working on me and everyday I learn something new about myself. My team was forgiving and they helped me stop believing the lies I was hearing. I felt like my work here was useless. I have not seen a lot come from our work here. My friend Sandra told me that this may be God protecting us from becoming prideful. I was already struggling with pride the last thing I needed was something else to boast about. I know my work here is increasing Gods kingdom. So many loved ones wrote me about my feelings and helped me get out of my cycle of self pity! Hallelujah He must become greater and I must become less. Lord, shrink me; give me the patients and joy that comes from doing your work. I spent the evening praying and consoling my friends, we are learning what it means to be open and honest. Staying in the Light is the never-ending theme of outreach! It’s really hard to be open but the blessings that follow are so worth it. I can’t wait to see what else happens in this next week.
Today we are presenting at a church. I think it’s so crazy that these churches invite us to preach. They don’t know us, they are not even that familiar with YWAM, but God has given us favor here and we present almost every Sunday. I’m doing a dance, I’m nervous, but it doesn’t matter. I’m only dancing for the Lord and leaving all preconceived judgments about my abilities behind. He will give me the moves. He will give me the courage. Why wouldn’t I be able to express a part of the any blessings he poured over my life? I’m getting a little crazy. The Lord is removing so much timidity in my soul. I want to have discernment while representing Him.
I’m blessed by those who include the creator in our friendship. Thanks.
Psalm 62; 8
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The beauty of your worship was so evident in your dance. It was a communion between you and God.
Here's an excerpt from my blog just as a reminder for you:
Part of my daily devotion was called "Surely I Will Help You Now:" This morning may each of us hear the Lord Jesus speak to us, saying, "'I myself will help you.' It's a small thing for Me, as your God, to help you in your time of need, especially when you consider what I've done for you already. What! Not help you? I bought you with My blood. What! Not help you? I died for you, and if I've already done what is greater, will I now not do what is less? Help you? This is the very least I will ever do for you, for I have done much more for you in the past and will do much more for you in the future. "Before the world began I chose you and made the covenant for you. I set My glory aside and become a man for you, and then I laid down My life for you. If I did all this, surely I will help you now...." —Charles Spurgeon
How powerful is this - if God came to earth as a baby and then died for us, how can we ever doubt He will care about what is happening in our lives. I know some people think we shouldn't bother God with the small things in our lives, but I believe God is all about the details. He knows the number of hairs on our head - and for some of us, they are getting fewer every day (ha, ha). How awesome God is! With joy we should surrender to Him, His love, and His plan for our lives. He's got it all under control - we just need to trust Him. Spend time with Jesus today thanking Him for all He has done and is doing for you everyday. Thank you, God, for caring for me...
Can't wait to see you worship back at home - we will witness the transformation of Ashley!
Love ya girl!
Ms. Diana
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